[09 Nov 2007|04:12pm] lawls lots of lawls thats what i have to say. XD post comment

[14 Nov 2006|12:46am] BLODDY HELL ITS STILL ALIVE >_> <_< LOL! i thaught this be dead by now anyhow HI!=D LOL 1 comment|post comment

[06 Nov 2005|12:52am] uhh I forgot to post one more thing this poem ....... well enjoy if you and if you dont then too bad i cant help but laugh at this life that tears me apart the reveals my insides. each day its worst, the pain that burns me alive till all my ashes are gone and released into the sky. Where it will somewhere spread and land to where theres nothing and just simply bring life. A tress sprouts in that one spot thats touched and soon becomes a home to several others.so much things from death can bring life and life can also bring death to another life.a life for a life a death for a death. which brings more meaning the begin or lost of life? To gain from one thing must come lots of sacarifices.so ones happyness is endowed into others sadness. so through these days that waste away, comes life and death, sorrow and happyness.and the fire inside me dwells inside feeding off the emotions that come with this life. I keep enduring this so called flame that will eventually burn my body and soul. where my ashes will fly and carry out hope. To where I start a begining of a better and stronger life. post comment

[05 Nov 2005|11:01pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Hot Hot Heat - Middle of Nowhere ] Well i guess im back agian and boy do i have lots of thaughts and so much crap going on i dont know how to feel or what to feel. but thats life and its mysterious ways. well lets update on whats basically going on my life for thoese who care or are intristed doesnt really matter. Either way its happening, well I had a big move at work different location sucks and the work conditions are crap they can probably get in trouble for that shit and from what i heard certain things there dont meet the qualifications for my line of work but I wont say what cause i dont want them to get in trouble and lose my job as well. lately all I do is work and hardly spend time with my friends but when i do I cherish everyminute being with them cause you never know when youll last see them, especially with my case -_-. Im trying to save up for my car typical teenager stuff but at this rate it wont get far.The Family is sure starting to spread and its starting to spread apart too. Im at the point of losing my house do to payments not being paid for 2 months, wont point any fingers, lately ive been giving up more then half my paycheck just to help for the house so it can help but what i get paid with is not enough as usual. So we have two options either our house gets taken away by the bank or government, Second we sell our house pay our debts and use the money to buy a house up state in kentucky. Now this is where it begins to get tricky this new house is going to be my grandmas house and my mnom wants to move up there two cause i have a older brother in the army with his family who live in kentucky. Any how my grand doesnt want my moms boy friend in this new house so they both plan on moving there but in seperate houses or my mom might actually go to california. I have to choose who to move with but theres more or i have the option of staying here in miami but on a certain condition. It would be under the roof of my best friend davids house, thats if its cool with his parents which i wouldnt find it to be a problem as long as i pay rent, that and i only live liek a block away =P.But if i do stay here I have no family else who lives here other then my twin (more complications).Hes having a kid good news but also can be bad hes no so ready for this kid but hes taking the step of taking care of it with his girlfrend together. But hes planing on going to the airforce which is alos another major step So hes heading towards another direction also which is a bummer =/ hes my twin. We started bonding more liek twins should have ever since my dad left the house and moved to texas. I might also have the option of moving to texas too with my dad but doubt it , I havent really talked to him about it and the fact that he lives in an apartment with only two bedrooms means no privacy whatso ever and not much of a life of my own. And if you thnk thats just it its not. With all this stress and unhappyness comes the feeling to be loved -_-. Ive been single for a very long time and want to start a relationship im tired of just working and thats it. And for college i dont know what to do cause i dont know where i will be and with constant moving wont help at all . Im tired of being lonely I cant go out and find someone cause i have no car and if I do I dont have any idea where to go cause im not much of a talker with new people but im working on it. And no offense to people who live here in miami But its hard to find a decent girl around here, and thats all i have to say. Im so confused and dont really have anyone around to talk to which brings me here to write on this journal -_- (who reads this idk ) 1 comment|post comment

[14 Aug 2005|12:37am] HEy Guess look whos finally wrote back once agian, I bet you wouldnt hear from me agian not that i know if anyone will actually read this.Lately People around me have been geting hurt or are down. And Its got me thinking about alot of shit.I feel there pain when I really shouldnt But I cant help but care cause theyre all people I love =/. Alot has happen And Theres going to be plenty more to come Thats all I can say. I finally graduated highschool and the new year has started I had to turn down devry university cause I have no ride or the money for it. I live a peace life now but ITs gotten alot more lonelyier but I can deal with that. I finally got a Job so Im pretty happy about that cause now i actually get paid for my services and I dont get bitched at from my family on how I just waste my life away.Sometimes I think I do but Im not the type to judge. As of Today I worked basically from 9-5 not too bad and went to watch wedding crashers Funny movie Id give it a 4 1/2 star.I got to see agreat person that I know hurt and cry which worried me . And That thing she said to me about earlyier on how I always end up dating messed up people kinda got to me.I just hate my love life, its just complete bull shit. It the typical nice guy finish last and the asshole comes along and takes her... Figures lol. Today I just actually sat down and thaught for a while something i havent done for over a long period of time. I cant really find a place where I belong anymore now that im gone during the day while everyone else is gone during the night.Im just speaking nonsense right now. I think im Going to write a poem something that hasnt been down in years. QUESTION You live your life while moving on, you go through it inch by inch,second by second,step by step There is going to be things that youll never forget. Each memory is good or bad, but it always going to be a small fraction,particle, or fracture of your life You never get anything whole cause even an item or thing has its time where it breaks down and when it does Its can either be be fixed , replaced, forgotten, or erased And if Its gone or still there it will always have that one small part that once was indeed apart of a memory. It might not have been acknowledged but it cant be proven that it wasnt there. And So I live on piece by piece wondering If maybe some point of my life there was something missing apart of me that I wasnt aware that was inside of me. Left out here puzzled and confused waiting for an answer or a solution that will come to my aid. To sooth out this life and possiably ease my pain. another quick poem woot woot I suppose. Im guess if you read this you can Tell that I am sad but life moves on and so do I that is why I must Say Goodbye!(that rhymes)Fairwell and When I will write agian I Will never no. I forgot one more thing I need a love in my life =/ ENRIQUE!!!!!! POOOOOOOOOOOOOOORQUE! (damn starburst commercial) 4 comments|post comment

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[23 Apr 2005|12:29am] [ mood | Disturbed ] [ music | Nothing ] well today was a overall good day now for the night it was a different story. But I leave it at that. I am very disturbed right now. I felt good about doing community service today.I was thanked several times and It really made me felt appreciated.well need to sleep i guess post comment

[16 Apr 2005|12:36am] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | Telepopmusik - Just Breath ] Well Today was an alright day I went to school did my work and i have one less thing to worry about.My cumminty service is acceptable and the asshole of my economics teacher signed my proposal sheet Woot!!!. Thats one less thing to worry about but there still is other things. Anyhhow I had a nice time with ericka,david, and the guys at e2 today it was nice being with them. I have 31 school days left till I graduate. i dont know what else to say then all the people whove been here for me I thank you all and love you guys. Laters post comment

[12 Apr 2005|10:06pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Hot Hot Heat - middle of nowhere(thank you emily for the cd) ] Hey guys havent wrote in thi s thing ina while.Anyhow Im startingt o do my community service at the nursing home.although I dont do much there its something.I got to thank ericka for tagging along, you have no idea how much that means to me. I guess I get to use to being ditched by most people but she always pulls through =).In other news I still dont have a life anyone willing to give me one give me a call.... j/k.Im not so confused as I was before but I relized something big like really big and it makes me sad. only time will tell *sigh*.Im going to go now, night night to you all 1 comment|post comment

[10 Apr 2005|08:04am] [ mood | worried ] [ music | Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Otherside ] have you ever have that empty feeling were something is just missing in your life and you just dont know what it is. Its times like these where you feel like most of you life has been wasted. Anyhow today im going to see if i can do some community service at the nursing home cause if i dont i dont graduate >_<. Im really siked about it cause i dont have much weeks till I graduate and my economics teacher is an asshole. Ive been worried alot alot of things. I shouldnt worry so much but it cant be helped. anyhow laters people 2 comments|post comment

[09 Apr 2005|12:20am] well i havent wrote in this in a while.I jsut want to say hi to everyoine and yeah 1 comment|post comment

[03 Apr 2005|12:06am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Queens Of The Stone Age - In My Head ] Well i had a fun day today woke up cut yards with my bro, cleaned my house, then have ez come over and play some guitar and watched some anime. We watched Dears"chobits on crack" basically. Anyhow I went with drea to fatasses birthday party. We watched not even half of tarzan 2 cause it sucked so we decided to watch badboys II. It was niceseing her agian I had a fun day. Im going to go now laters 2 comments|post comment

[25 Mar 2005|02:25am] well went to the fair with my friends today and we all relized that we wasted alot of money for no aparent reason but bleh we had a nice time together i suppose. Watched kill bill which was fuuny with all the arms, legs, and heads flying all over the place and all that blood was a nice touch too.Im going to go now so laters. 1 comment|post comment

[24 Mar 2005|01:33am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Jimmy Eat World - Work ] well hi everyone, yet another exciting day in my world where everything is fun fun fun lol. Anyhow today wasnt such a bad day woke up and first person i see is ericka =). Then from there had cooked me some breakfast, its been soo long since i had eggs, toast, and thoese mini sausages. Then I did some laundry and what not and had it easy from there on. David came with ringo walked around talked about theme parks and shit and I went to his house watched alittle bit of anime.Ericka knocks on the door and we hang out for alittle outside. I suppose ericka walked me back home lol and from there on ive been here just thinking about life. I wonder what hell will come out of tomorrow Im going to the fair i think just need some more cash >_<. *stretches* well time to hit the dusty old trial... hehe laters Ohh in other news I found out what my brothers kid is goign to be Its A BOY! I have another nephew to look forward too =D. 1 comment|post comment

[22 Mar 2005|01:57am] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Jamiroquai - picture of my life ] Crappy day nothing more too it;( I went to the mall it was alright i guess didnt really do much but stand there and what not. had ericka mad at me, didnt feel too good about that. And meh anyhow I should go to sleepits getting late laters.it was nice seing amanda and janelle once agian havent seen them in a while so yeah. thats all I have to say . post comment

[20 Mar 2005|12:04am] well well if it isnt nen. anyhow Im just bored and yet another pointless entry for me to right hehe=P. well springbreak and not that much has happened and I want to go to the beach like soon m aybe ill like go tomorrow. post comment

[15 Mar 2005|09:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Chevelle - Vitamin R ] Well Its official now me and Ericka go out.Today has been a pretty crummy day where I work all day and did all my work in school like a good little boy. man im out of shape i need to start working out everyday agian cause dam i feel so weak =(. 1 comment|post comment

[15 Mar 2005|12:21am] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | Sum41 - Pieces ] Well Im in a hyper mood and i preetty much dont know why. I gues i got alot ou of my head and system and im stress free.IM SORRY ERICKA FOR NOT ANSWERING THE DOOR!!!>_<. I didnt know .... anyhow spring break is soon and I have to figure out what to do early release.Hopefully Violet, Ericka, and David are up for something to do or who ever wants to do something. I dont want to sleep but if i dont sleep ill wont wake up and if i dont wake up then id miss school and then somebody would be mad at me and I dont want them to be more mad at me as it is. I finish school soon guys what you guys going to get me when i graduate huh?? if its a million dollars id really apreciate it and Id spend it wisely.well nighty nighty im out 1 comment|post comment

[13 Mar 2005|01:23am] [ mood | frustrated ] REASONS WHY I HATE THIS FAMILY 1)We talk shit about one another 2)We can never admit what they did was wrong but insist it was on something or someone 3)We can never get along 4)We try to make ourselfs better then another and make the rest feel like shit 5)We can never talk civilized, instead we yell at one another 6)We can never be satified or happy for one elses acomplishments 7)We put money over pretty much everything everything 8)We rather run away or use violence for our problems 9)We call the cops on one another over the stupidist shit that should be dealt with at home 10)we only help others financially just to help, instead we rub it in your face 11)no ones realy your friend I can go on and on but all I want to say is this house just simply sucks and doesnt take any consideration that others our sleeping especially my grandpa who just came back from the hospital fom heart surgery(thank god). uhh i dont want to talk anmore Im sicken by everyone in this house 5 comments|post comment

[12 Mar 2005|12:57am] [ mood | cynical ] wheres everyone when you need them :( 4 comments|post comment

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